:3

so i started a log on New Year’s of how many s:3iles i could get from people in a day. why? i selfishly wanna impose upon others.

so i started a log on New Year’s of how many s:3iles i could get from people in a day. why? i selfishly wanna impose upon others.
and it made the front page! SEX.
Gaga wears her art out

If you have not heard of Lady Gaga, then you are lying. Have you also not heard of Facebook, or nutella, or not blasting the radio’s Top 40 while I attempt to sleep an acceptable amount of hours for class the next day?
Re-Create Yourself
Do not accept the roles that society foists on you. Re-create yourself by forging a new identity, one that commands attention and never bores the audience. Be the master of your own image rather than letting others define if for you. Incorporate dramatic devices into your public gestures and actions – your power will be enhanced and your character will seem larger than life.
i don’t usually write this much, but it was worth it to help myself out of a slump, and hopefully worth much more than that by helping at least one of you out there.
it’s ironic.
i always dwell on others’ unhealthy relationships, trying to find a way to pierce their perspective and have them view their coupledom from an outside point-of-view (that’s always been a fault of mine, is overcommitment to help people, even if i can’t). but you can’t connect on that level with people who are in love; unhealthy relationships only exist from the sole belief of both sides thinking the relationship is, in fact, healthy. it is their own reality. and this, to me, is like watching two people drown, and not being able to do anything about it, and the reason you can’t do anything is because it doesn’t cross their minds that they ARE drowning… because as long as they have each other, nothing else matters.
this is ironic, because i realize i have created the same false sense of happiness without even being in a relationship.
with unrequited love, the feeling is the same every morning: you wish you were still sleeping. the bed seems unnaturally large for one person… almost empty even. i check my texts from the night before, pretending to not care if i get a text from her. then i meditate, which gets rid of the shit feelings until the next time the world fills my life’s diaper.
making gifs of movies: that mid-ground between being productive and doing absolutely nothing. like when a penis gets a chubby.
”There’s a human trait that can sometimes be incredibly beneficial to growth, while at the same time devastating to morale. And that’s the desire to have something right fucking here, right goddamn now. If you point that urgency toward something like getting a better job or a promotion, it can be a powerful tool. That urgency is what made all human civilization possible.
i miss waking up to you
just to watch you sleep.
i miss you’re smiling eyes
whenever our gazes meet.
after all those times that were timeless
and all that was set in stone,
i don’t think i can remember
how to do this alone.
or if you’re too lazy to read what i wrote, just watch this first..
..then watch this. then don’t cry.
i don’t think that people are inherently good or that they are inherently evil, which is why i choose to believe that they are inherently good.
SCRUBS
next to love, i consider humor to be a pretty good guy eh doesn’t afraid of things: when i was in highschool, Scrubs was one of the last shows on TV i decided was worth my short attention span.. prolly cuz it could make me laugh while the rest of the world’s funny boner fell flaccid.